October202011
30 Days Til I Get Over You-DAY 3
Well when you’re experiencing heartache, God, the Universe, Buddha, or whoever you believe in, decides to throw you a wake up call or some kind of revelation. It’s only Day 3 and through the heartache that The Cowboy has done to me, many lemons have been thrown my way…I just don’t know if I want to make lemonade with all of them?!
Day 2 seemed like some blah regular Tuesday where everything seems so just Tuesday. Work was work but as I was driving home a car struck me at an intersection on my driver’s side from the opposite side of the street, when he tried to make a left turn. It happen so fast I literally was in shock as to what the hell happened?! I thank the heaven or the Universe that no one got hurt. I’ve never been into an accident until then. I literally was in numb and freaked out. The routine police report was done and insurance claims were given…now it’s all up to the insurance companies. I live alone in Honolulu and the rest of my family lives on the neighbor Hawaiian island, Maui so my friends here came to my help to follow me home and some stayed on the phone while I hyperventilated with tears. The rest of the night I was shaken up, my heart ache had seemed to temporarily disappeared. Sad thing is I just bought my car in full with all the money I saved up in my little piggy bank. As my mind went in a daze my phone blew up like crazy with calls and texts to see if I was ok. There’s nothing more soothing, but you’re mother’s voice telling you that everything is gonna be okay. My mother reminded me that the main thing was I wasn’t hurt and the other driver was not hurt.
Today I’m grateful that I’m still alive and this whole car accident made me see that heart ache is temporary because in a second your whole life can change. It’s only Day 3 of my heart ache, but right at 5am I get a phone call from The Cowboy?! He found out I had been in an accident, he wanted to be sure I was safe and not hurt. Strangely you would think I would be like “YAY YAY YAY!!!!” but I didn’t feel any emotion. I wasn’t so elated or angry as to why only now he comes around, or even pain. I just felt BLANK…
After this car accident, I’m trying to remember things happen for a reason and I can’t control everything or the future. I just need to deal and live life everyday because like I said it can change in a second. Now my car is out of commission til everything gets disputed, my heart ache is still there, but the main thing is that I’m still alive and I’ll get through all of this because I believe all of this is happening for some reason that I may not understand right now, but will all make sense later. So live life and even though it might get you down, just remember what Dori says from “Finding Nemo,” “JUST KEEP SWIMMING, JUST KEEP SWIMMING, JUST KEEP SWIMMING, SWIMMING, SWIMMING….”
Tags: /heartache /car accident /Honolulu /Finding Nemo /Love /Family /Friends
