December292011
La Lascivia
For it is a true rule, that love is ever rewarded, either with the reciproque, or with an inward and secret contempt. ≈ Essays of Bacon
The cheerful girl who enjoyed life the most, locked herself into a dark room and threw the keys out of an open window. Watching the miraculous creatures of God all alone was pure unbearable. She didn’t wanted to be a part of the flawless plan, she refused to go out and get lost amongst the crowd. The only thing she had ever desired was to be special to the one she loved, yet his heart was torn between many more, to a point where there was no room for him, himself. An actual player.
“Time to go.” regaining her consciousness, she slowly turned back.
“Yeah.”
They say there are seven deadly sins; pride, greed, envy, gluttony, wrath, sloth and lust. And she had committed almost all of them for his love. She loved him as desert loved sun and fish loved water, then she yearned for him like bullet yearned for flesh.
When things had gotten out of her hands was too unclear, one night she opened her eyes only to find a handful of pills silently swaying through her throat.
Kim Eun Joo continued to take light steps towards the door, one after one another, one another after the other. Then she suddenly stopped when two men appeared out of nowhere. Putting on a crocked smile she greeted them for one last time.
“Father”, she asked with a soft voice, “ do you know what Lucifer stands for, the reason why he was kicked out of heaven?”
“Pride, my child.” answered the old man. His certainty amused her.
“I believe you’re wrong, he was kicked because he loved. So much that he wanted God’s love for only himself.”
Her steps fastened and soon she was out of sight. The Father turned his confused gazes to the Chief.
“Why was she here?”
The pills got mixed to the poisonous sins in her soul and she closed her eyes satisfied once again. She wanted to be closer to the one she loved. The music had stopped and she was the only one left without a chair.
“She lusts for God.”
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